Ashley is gone )':

Ashley is gone, and i am so bored and sad! I miss her like crazy!! We had so much funn, i cant believe its already over!! Everything is so still and quiet. yet i can still feel her here, her cute giggle, and us talking together, its haunting me, now that its all over. I need her to come back so i feel better, because now im sad and bored and a bit creeped out that i can still here her laugh and feel her good-bye hug. It feels like she was never over, yet it does. I miss her like crazy now!! )'= its a scary feeling, i miss her so much!!! i wish she was here beside me, and we were checking our emails, and surfing the internet, from Yahoo, to Google, to Facebook, to Sparkles Blog. And us watching all those videos, and eating candy, staying up till 11:30 PM and waking up at 7:41 AM. I remember so clearly us doing our nails, mine hot pink and red, hers hot pink and lime green. And i remember us sitting in the tub, washing our feet from being at the playground and elsewhere. I remember us cuddling with the cats, and play a game, and writing in our diaries and just plain talking. I remeber yesterday, after picking her up, we had chicken lazana, and forr breakfats today, she had toast and jam and i had toast and peanutbutter and jam. and for lunch, she had clam chowder, and i had vegtables. It feels like she just got here, and then had to go.
I remember her tellling me that i threw my cat pillow and big teddy-bear at her during the night, while we were asleep. I remember her calling our one kitten "pip-squeak" and calling another "Blacky" and the other "White fangs". I remember us trying to get Cocoa out from the deck. i remember the rule "If Cocoa jumps onto the table again, she'll be put outside". Its all clear as day to me. Its sad to think this is all a memory now ): i remember when her mom pulled up at the school, while we were sitting in the shade of a tree near the playground, and her mom saying "Its time to go!" and then us running home, getting her stuff packed and making sure she had everything. I remember her good-bye hug and her moms good-bye hug. I remember us sitting on the swings, just about random things, like school and books, and our classmates. I remember us brushing our teeth and washing our faces this morning, and brushing our hair, making us look nice for our next walk. I people are probably thinking "Well it was just today and yesterday, of course you'll remember all this stuff right now!" but im sure glad i go to write it down, so i didnt forget, andi'll write it in my diary tonight, and i sure hope Ashley writes in hers around the same time so i can feel her beside me, like last night after pausing "Princess Diaries 2" and getting into our Pjs and writing in our journals. She was right beside me. And i hope i feel her right beside me tonight too. Miss you and love you Ashley!!

Jennii